links for 2008-07-03: Folio and MagCloud

links for 2008-07-02: Apple & AT&T Extortion

Shift-Reload, Baby!

I don’t know, but I have to imagine that fatherhood can be kinda fun.

Fatherhood

Run Heather Run

links for 2008-06-28: Squid

So after 2.5 hours in the chair, a lot of jaw-clenching, and couple of white-light-angels-singing moments, I have a new friend on my right arm. He’s a giant squid. I like him a lot.

The lines are done now. In a couple weeks, I go back for shading.

I know I’m going to be asked about him for the rest of my life (at least until I move out to that cabin in the woods and start my shotgun collection), so I thought I’d start keeping a list of answers to the “why” question. Here are a few I’m toying with.

• Squid? What squid?
• I just love calamari. Don’t you?
• My parents were killed in a freak squid accident.
• That’s between me and the squid.
• I got suckered.
• Get it off. Get it off!

Truth is, it’s not about the squid. Tattoos are symbols, not to be taken literally. My new friend is a reminder that I am connected to many things, that there’s mystery in the deep, and that if I really needed to, I could take on a whale.

I plan on making up new meanings for many years to come.

See also: On Permanence and Scars of Choice

My New Friend

links for 2008-06-26: Photos

Think of photos of yourself in the 80s. Imagine if, somehow, that powder blue Don Johnson suit you loved, the one you wore with a white t-shirt and the sleeves rolled up, imagine if it never came off. It just stayed on your body, year after year, getting fuzzier. Tattoos are like that.

We all have tattoos already, of course. They’re our stories, our mental scars. The things we carry around with us, just under the surface. Your first breakup is always there, just around the corner in every relationship that comes after. Tattoos like this may not be seen, but they’re just as permanent.

The difference is, a tattoo is outward. It’s going to be seen, depending where it is, of course. At the very least, you’ll see it, and so will people you love. For some, it is quite literally wearing your heart on your sleeve. It’s a small sign to the universe that says, “This is me.”

Even if you have no intention of ever getting a tattoo, ask yourself, if you did, what would it be? How do you see yourself? What would be on your sign? It’s an amazing mental exercise.

Tattoos are even more complicated for my people. I have family members who had tattoos forced upon them. Their signs were a row of numbers on a forearm.

For many years, I said I couldn’t get a tattoo until my grandmother passed. She’s still with us, thank goodness, but her memory is shattered. Last time I saw her, she asked who’s son I was. If she saw me with a tattoo now, she’d forget a moment later.

When I met Heather, she had a few small tattoos. I thought they were hot. She always talked about getting more, and I was, to be honest, a little uptight about it.

Then we had the miscarriages. And I turned 35. And something changed in me. I could rationalize it as “taking control of our bodies” or some other hippy shit, but the truth is, I don’t know what changed. It’s still too recent.

My birthday present to Heather this year was a pair of tattoos. They’re amazing, and she’s not even done yet. Watching her go through the process of choosing her symbols, working with the artist, and committing them to her skin has been an inspiration.

I’m still scared of the permanence of it. But now I see it like this: Life is about collecting scars. Some of the scars are internal, some are external. Some you show to the world, some just to the ones you love. Some are forced upon you, and some you choose. It’s the collecting that’s important. If you don’t have scars, you’re not living.

I spent too many years avoiding risk, as if the goal was to leave a pristine corpse. Now I think, maybe it’s time to stop waiting. Stop avoiding. Go out there and get a scar to be proud of.

Our tattoos will be different. They will not be forced on us. They will not mean what they meant to my grandparents, or my parents. They will have a meaning that we create, and it’s okay if nobody else understands.

My first tattoo will begin this afternoon. It will be my sign to the universe. A scar of choice that I will wear on my sleeve. I still don’t know what it means, exactly, but I’ll have the rest of my life to figure it out.

And what is it? You’ll see. Soon.

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UPDATE: Please give a warm welcome to My New Friend.

On Permanence and Scars of Choice

For our third book, we’re doing a special double issue tackling two of the biggest themes in life: Sex and Death. We’re looking for illustrations that take on one or both of these themes in a breathtaking design. Submission tips: The best designs don’t literally illustrate the theme, they play with it. The cover of the “Busted” book, about getting caught, featured a red hand. (Get it?) You can include words (sex, death, Fray), but it’s not necessary. The design can include both themes or just one. If you need inspiration, just think about a time in your life when you lost someone, or got some, and go from there. And most of all, have fun!

To submit to the contest, go here. Story submissions will open in July.

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